*yawN* I wanna have a playback… it was fun. ….I will remember this night…*jaw breaking yawN*
Interact Installation
October 22, 2007 at 12:26 am (Life)
Before you know it, everything is over. I was actually looking forward to this night. Well, perhaps because this shall be the last time i’ll be emceeing. At least during high school life, that is. I just love the thrill of it. Mom says I’m too much of loving the attention i get. Who doesn’t anyway?
It went, not okay in the beginning and okay towards the end. XD
And the night just ended. I feel a little empty right now. Perhaps because of the minimal few photos we took. I wanted more!! only managed to snap a few photos. One with val, another with wei yiing, and another one alone [which val made me]. Lawrence looked great in black, too bad didn’t take a photo with him. And VaL was gorgeous with her new dress with her hair blown, you’ll see. yup, char snapped us. I’ll post it up here when i get them.
doh.
October 10, 2007 at 5:37 pm (Friends, Life, School)
Tired. My poor fingers. They’re tired too. Stained with ink, flipping trough 260 pages. No more, no less. Again and again. Checking and counting, counting and checking. All i can hear all around – Fingers busily bouncing off the keyboards, clicking sounds of ‘mice’. And so that’s how it’s like, being under the roofs of a humble old building of Sarawak Press.
Yes, it was yet another visit to the printing company. Along with Pn. Loo right after my papers, skipping lunch, to The Place. -.-
Good news : nil
Bad news :
1. Spelling errors. [still a plenty]
2. No coloured dividers!!!!! [yes i know, its not the first time mentioning it, and mind you, i hoped and prayed and hoped till the very end. nope, santa didn't come by, he assured me that i was a good girl tho. xD]
3. Missing photos here and there. [means there is more work.]
4. Mistake in quotation. [2 of the coloured adverts weren't allocated in the quotations. Gotta eat up my colour page some more. great.]
5. Just found out Joshua and elz’s poem isn’t in. Pn Loo took it out. Sheeeeeez!!!! I can’t feel more guilty about it. Forgive me lah guys.. T.T
5. Cannot be finalised for the final draft anytime before Raya. And the graphic girl wont be back until next Friday. doh. ish. means, final draft = AFTER RAyA!!! [ as if things can't get any worse????]
6. Magazines are not to be distributed anytime before the LASTTTT week of school. G-r-r-reat.
and oh, couldn’t make it to meet up with val they all. I’m soooouuu sorry guys!!!! [and June, i know you'd forgive me eh? =p] nevermind, nevermind, I know y’all will understand, no? =) and thanks for the ticket, sorry it gotta go to the trash.
Anyway, here’s a lovely picture for you all, [untuk menebus dosa, haehae] :
Friendship needs no words…
Lollipop friend.
October 6, 2007 at 2:36 pm (Friends, Life)
Val told me that day : 你放得很干脆哦..
Wull, did I ? Perhaps yah.. We’re talking again aren’t we?
But there is something I have to make straight about. No, I never had feelings for him.
It was like giving a child a lollipop, then grab it away from the child, leaving the child breaking into tears, then bawling.
He would never comprehend. Why was it taken away? Why was it that it needed to be taken away? If he really can’t have it, why was it given to him in the first place? Maybe he would just let go if he was given an explanation, but no. He was left with many questions bombarding him.
The child was broken. Even broken when the child saw his little sister happily holding the lollipop instead. Why can’t he have it when his sister can?
She was smiling. He wanted the lollipop.
Looking at her brilliant smile, he thought, did he really wanted and demanded for a lollipop so badly in the first place? No. So in the end, he decided he would not take the smile away from his sister. It was sure nice to have a lollipop but he figured he could live without it.
And I was like the child. So, did i have feelings for him? Like the lollipop, I can’t deny that certain part of me do look up to him that made me initially thought that I liked him. But no, I’ve thought about it and I’m sure. He was someone who made me feel great about myself. He was someone who made me feel that I’m treasured. He was someone who made me constantly remind myself that I’m surrounded with friends who love and care for me in my darkest moments.
I just couldn’t bear losing a close friend. It was the fear of losing someone.
You.
September 19, 2007 at 7:54 pm (Family, Life)
I like the way you look at me
with your eyes so soft and brown.
I like the way you hold my hands
and pull me back on grounds.
I like the way you smile at me
and make my heart go warm.
I like the way you let me bury
my head into your arms.
I like the way you wipe my tears
and pull me close to you.
I like the way you play with my hair
you curl it like a kid so playful
I like the way you lift me up
when nothing seems in place.
I like the way you laugh at me
when I ask you for a kiss.
I like the way you move your face
next to mine so close,
so close
that your cushioned cheeks pressed on mine,
that I can smell your distinct yet familiar fragrance,
that it tells me my heart is at home,
and into my ears I hear you saying,
“I love you!”
Don’t leave me mum, don’t let me walk alone.
A hole in my smile.
September 17, 2007 at 4:07 pm (Life)
You might have been wondering what was the title of the last post was all about.
Yep.
I lost a tooth.
I know.
I’m sixteen.
And yes, I lost a tooth.
And now, I’m broken.
I can’t believe it. I have actually cried over losing a tooth! Well, you might wonder, how bad can that be? I’ve lost something I had ON ME, for SIXteen Loooong years tho. But you know, it can be pretty awful to know that there isn’t any teeth coming out to fill that space.
awwwww…. *bite lower lip*
‘Cause you see, I have this big teeth problem. There are still a couple of milk teeth that has yet fallen off. Funny why only the last dentist among all other dentists i have seen in my life has discovered that it’s rather VERY late for a girl at MY AGE to still have, not one, but a couple of milk teeth in my mouth. So, as far as teeth beauty is concerned, i might not have permanent teeth in beneath my gums to replace the milk teeth. Only an x-ray tells it all.
But in this case, I had [since when i duno] four canine [虎牙], unlike the normal 2 in every other peoples’ mouth. What happened was that my 2 permanent canine erupted before my baby canine drops. So, the 2 permanent canines erupted closely beside my baby canines.
Get the picture now? And so now, my upper right canine has fallen off, finally, leaving a hole. End of story? Not yet. I still have my upper left canine, strongly intact to my gums. And it’s pretty obvious that it’s a baby canine by the look of it, the size i mean. Now that, better don;t ever fall offf!!!! Well, i know it’s impossible though…hhuuuhmm… Now i feel sad again…
No, it sounds disgusting to have a tooth transplant, even worse to wear braces! eww…scary lar..
Heiyor…well, and you would see less of my teeth-exposing-smiles from now on. humph. *blink*
Tooth fairy!! I demand my tooth back!!
September 17, 2007 at 3:37 pm (Life)
How was my day? Today was..well, not so good but not too bad. Uh, what am I talking about? Anyway, went to look for Pn. Loo, ‘first thing in the morning’, as commanded by the woman. Bumped myself to the staff room door, and the next thing i know, I found myself stupidly frozen right at the door. Ah, great, Mr. principal was in the middle of his morning briefings to the teachers.
And pretty Agnes can’t just stop laughing like I’m not embarrassed enough with ALL the teachers staring widely at me as I stuck my tongue out and step backward to let way to the door to be closed.
I mean, where are the prefects?!!! They are supposed to stand at the door to safe students from humiliation like one of those i had this morning. Hmph..
Anyway, I can’t help feeling better when soon enough, Joseph came by, and before we could say anything, “POOP” and…” WHERE ARE THE PREFECTS?!” ..XD hehex sorry Jo..
So… after that, Agnes and I strolled to 3A1 to pay Cindy a visit. And there goes Agnes of her “aww…..how I miss the class….how I miss form 3 life!!” Yep, you bet. Come to think about it, form 3 life was so carefree that you just can actually afford to sit in class so idly that you snooze off while the teacher is teaching. Ah..that’s life then. But, no. Not life NOW. Even if you get SOu bored during lessons, there are still SOME undone business SOMEHOW that will not stop boggling your mind. Snoozing off? Nope, not so luxurious.
After sitting in class for like 2 whole no-pnloo-periods, i finally decided that she might miss me in the staff room dying to see me. So, off I go and BUMP.. MR. Tau.
*a loong wide-eyed stare……I looked at him, he looked at me.
Mr. Tau : shuyi, you have not be in class for 2 whole weeks.
Shuyi : …uhhhh….*blank stare*
Mr. Tau : Everytime I go to your class for history lesson, you’re ALWAYS not in class.
shuyi : ….uhhhhhhh……*hands start to get cold*..my….majala…..
Mr. Tau : I don’t want you out of class anymore.
shuyi : …..uhhh…but..
Mr. Tau : Tell pn.Loo I want u in class for every history lesson.
shuyi : ..thhha.
Mr. Tau : ..and you sejarah is not that good also, you know.
shuyi : …..
Great, my sejarah is not that good. i know, I KNOW…!!
……and i submissively trailed his footsteps with my head as low as ever…
After recess, moral. Note: I only brought ONE textbk and that is moral. Nice of me right, Mr. Chiang?
BUt no, you just had to make me feel bad. He gave us a surprise test. aaannd, yea….I left them blank. While mr chiang, who knows very well that he caught me this time, cannot help but kept saying, 没办法咯。。就是这样咯。。你最近想majalah想太多了啦。。moral也丢掉了。。没办法咯。。
Well, thank YOU VERY MUCH.
Wanna join me?
September 14, 2007 at 11:03 pm (Life, emo)
I’ll scream. I’ll shout. I’ll cry.
Then… ….I’ll move on.
thanks dear buddy, angelina.
LET GO[fullstop]
September 14, 2007 at 12:55 pm (Life)
I have thought about it. I have made up my mind. There are things in life we cannot but let go. You can’t cage a butterfly. Can you?
Little did I know
September 12, 2007 at 7:35 am (Life)
Okay, so here it goes ~
[for the first 2 cursing post, if you would call that. I have been real nice with words already]
We met each other. And it was way back to.. uh.. 3 years and 9 months, to be exact. I thought I knew you then. You’re this one person, so far away.
Life went on sailing for 2 years. You came closer to my life. I thought, by then, “oh so this is you.” I thought I knew you then.
Little did I know, you were an intruder. You dropped those words every girl dreads to hear. Like a bomb, you dropped them. Little did i know, naive me, it was all just about a bet with a friend of yours, placed on ME. You, should have known how I felt. You, betrayed my feelings. You, intruded my life.
And that, was THEN.
As life goes on sailing, Life pulled us all together. In a bunch. We grew closer, all of us. And an even clearer picture of YOU. And I thought I knew you then.
But little did I know..
You came into my life, once again. Even much closer this time.
You smudged the line between us. It became sO blur. More often than not, I thought it was true. You came into my dreams, you came into my fantasies. More often than not, I thought it was more to just dreams and fantasies. You made me….MADE me care for you..
Oh-so-i-thought! Little did i know, i actually DO NOT KNOW YOU AT ALL!
You came into my life without knocking at my doors and you left when you felt like it.
Wull, thank you very much!
Little did YOU know, you left me hanging.
But then again, thanks for your attention, your care, you love during that phase even tho i doubt very much, that it can be even regarded as attention, care and love. Thanks for being not who you are at that time.
Im gonna miss THAT you.
